To my past,
This year I welcomed you in my home and made space for you. You were comfort when I needed you. You made me feel like you were here all the long. We spent many nights together cuddling and reminiscing on the wouldas, couldas, and shouldas. Many nights I stayed on the phone with you, as I ignored the call from, A BRIGHTER FUTURE. However, I had a 60 second call with A BRIGHTER FUTURE, and they showed me what I could have if I just learned to trust that greater was availble. Therefore, with faith in my heart and strength in my fingers, I am writing you because the time has come for you to vacate. You can no longer stay here. I am giving you until tonight to leave, 11:59pm to be exact. You were great while you were here but I no have space for you in 2018. I have already planned a year of success, happiness, joy, freedom, and achievement of my dreams. I have NO VACANCY for anymore of your symptoms such as hurt, pain, heartbreak, frustration, and even anger. I know I could keep you around for those moments where I feel uncomfortable but comfortability won't get me to my next. Yeah, I hear you. I'm not perfect but... I know I deserve more. All the negativity that you brought, the drama, the confusion, the frustration, the anger, the merry-go-round, the up-and-down, I don't want it. I don't need friendships, relationships, jobs that keep me going in circles on a giant Ferris wheel. I'm sick & I'm ready to get off. I don't want to turn this into a Hollywood movie and REPLAY what was said and done. I pressed MUTE and watched in silence as I realized something was wrong about the story all along. I have no regrets. It's just that, I don't want this movie, and I don't want this play anymore. I need a New SCRIPT and my bookshelf of life needs space for new books, new chapters, with happy endings. Please don't get me wrong. I don't regret a thing, I just think it's time for us to move on. I know you may attempt to come back and remind me of what happened but I have mentally processed the lessons of your role and sealed the chapter so only the highlights of the lesson replays. So, I know this is a good decision because I know if I HOLD ON to YOU, I'll LET GO of what I deserve. And If I let go of what I DESERVE, I'll be holding on to YOU but letting go of ME. I choose me this time. Therefore, I wish you well and now I choose to LET GO and most importantly LET GOD. Goodbye Forever!
Signed and Sealed,